UGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Okay.... so when I up and quit my job the one thing that I thought I would dread more than anything was the fact that I would now be in charge of the cooking. Funny though... I don't mind that nearly as much as all the freakin laundry. Now it's not like I didn't do most of the laundry before... I probably did. However, lately I'm just feeling like that is all my life is about .... LAUNDRY!!! It's not the washing and drying part that I mind so much.... it's the putting it away... it's the sorting through all the kids clothes...which ones fit...which ones are too big... which ones might fit them next year... what to do with all the ones that don't fit. UGHHHH!!! I hate clothes!!! Now one might think that I'm just having a bad day... really I'm not! I'm just feeling a little brain dead lately! I feel all I'm good for is cooking, cleaning and child-rearing. Now would I give it up if I had the chance at my dream job.... NO! In fact, not long ago I was offered my dream job... good money... and a chance to use what is left of my brain. And what did I do.... I cried because the thought of NOT being able to take my kids to school... or swim lessons... or a field trip just made me sad. So.... I said NO and really never looked back. However, I'm a little worried about what I'm going to do with myself when they don't need me so much! Where will I work.... and just how challenging of a job will be offered to someone who has been home with their children for X number of years. I have no idea!!! Probably just the Wal-mart greeter or a cashier at McDonalds. Although there is nothing wrong with those jobs... I've actually worked at both establishments.... it's just not what I would really have in mind for myself. Sometimes I feel like when I walked out that door... I walked away from myself. I no longer feel like my life is my own... I have nothing that is just "mine". I have nothing that really challenges me ... and nothing that ever really makes me feel "satisfied". I do realize that what I am doing now is actually the most important job that I could ever have in my life. I am very fortunate that I am able to stay home with my kids because they will be grown and gone before I know it!!!! It's just every once in a while you want to feel like you are "doing something" and being home just doesn't ever give you that kind of feeling that you once got at work. I will never regret this decision to stay home and I know that I will look back at this time in my life as the best ever! It's just every once in awhile you have those days.... those days where if you wash just one more pair of underwear you just might scream!!!!!